How many ensures required for a liquid eating disorder recovery diet?

please dont say ask my nutritionist she only wants to see me every 4 or 5 weeks. and now im alone for way too long and experiencing severe pain when i eat real food so im gonna take the plunge and have ensures enough to nourish my body and heal my digestive system. but im not sure how many. this is just until i figure out another plan. i have struggled all the way through with real food and food on plates and to date still have not ate a full days or with my family. i have no support food wise to take those risks and even the drinks will be scary to do with no help from N, residental is not an option but i know i need to heal my stomach the pain is so bad..... maybe someone here could share there soft food or liquid recovery food plan.... i have come from less than one hundred cals a day and only going up to 400 on a good day in ed. but i wanna change it i just cant takke this pain but see more my intake is prob even my doctor is saying so now..... i dunno how to reply so thanks to anyone who does xxx